Be Myself

其实我并没有人们想象中的那么开朗
我是个人.有自己的思想,当然也有相当的脾气.
我在众人面前总表现出无所谓,大家喜欢就好的样子~
但其实不是..我真的很想抗议!!
但告诉自己,我不能那么做..我会引起更多的争执..
我很害怕夜晚,尤其是夜深的时候..寂寞的心情没人懂~
又死爱面子,不肯去找任何人来陪我..
觉得自己会给人带来负担,烦到别人

只有真正了解我的人懂我.知道我需要什么,想些什么.
真正了解我的人,
我只找到两个...
一个是欣,另一个是玲.
我和欣是16年的姐妹了
了解对方也不稀奇
而玲,我和她认识了5年多
朋友之中和她的友谊最长久
我们没有争吵过
不代表像别人所说的"就是要争吵过,才算真正的朋友"
本人非常不赞同这一点.
谁说一定要经过争吵才会发现朋友的缺点,然后了解对方???
谁说争吵后还愿意留下来的就是真正的好朋友???
也不想想,人家留下来可能是有目地的!
了解我的人知道,我不喜欢胡言乱语.
如果你说我是在骗你??! 那好,跟着你的感觉走~
从你有了这个想法的那一刻起,你就已经不信任我
我不会骗任何人!
朋友是拿一颗心出来交的!

我不是那种没有朋友就去寻找另一位朋友的人
这举动代表了你一定要有个人来支持你所做的事情
陪你做你认为对的事情
太假了..我绝不做这种事

写下这篇post,我并没有在暗射任何人
别对号入座...

从今天起,不再为那些事而烦~不再逃避任何人~不再执著!
看清了那些人是怎么样的,不会再硬来了
不会再想还有下次了
做我自己就好 :)

tired day.but happy :)

just back from tambun
to have dinner with uncle sunny and auntie sharon :D
although feel tired,but i had learnt many things from uncle sunny^^
he teach me and told me something that very useful for me in future.
sorry for urm..my attitude was very cool when dinner time.
just slept for 5 hours+ on last night i think..><
first time meet uncle sunny and auntie sharon.
both of them are very kindly,funny,worshipful
he still keep ask me to eat ice-cream..treat me like a kid~ ><
hees..
i realize something. and won't be sad anymore!^^
happy is more important than everything♥


todays line damn lag!
cant do anything!even just send a mail



-looking forward to next wednesday♥-

that's all for today.

the last time!

i won't help you all anymore!!
yesterday still feel happy when you come and ask me about the question
but then,how you all treat me??
just like i help you all is 理所当然
first time see this type of people!
but nevermind.at least i figure out how you all treat me
not "friend"!
i will become useless,or even just air when you all no need me
from you all's action,i know what you all are mention about
i had tolerate you all for a long time!
i won't be an idiot anymore
as somebody said:好心没好报.

____ =(

昨天本来想说去怡保给医生看一看我的牙齿罢了(因为最近都觉得很痛)
哪知道
他竟然帮我乔了 ><
距离我的appointment还有2个星期..提前弄了 :(
好辛苦!!!
昨天回到家头就一直痛+晕,牙齿紧得不想说话
怎么那么衰!!
考试前就不舒服...
我真的读不进!! :'(
明天的BM bye bye了啦~!

good luck for my BM~
Hope Tomorrow will feel better... ><

who am i...?

just back from piano lesson..
today,teacher said now she only discover that i am a stubborn people?
is it keep asking a complicated question mean stubborn? OMG! ><
then i better keep quiet on next time
i won't ask any quiestion :X

am i a stubborn people?
or selfish? barbarian? unconscionable? :(

no title...

得知阿嬷病了~
原来姐和我都哭了...
妈咪说好傻~为什么哭...?
我哭当然有我的原因
想起了跟阿嬷的一点一滴
我哭得更厉害...

小时候,我总喜欢在睡前趴在阿嬷身上,跟她聊个没完没了
玩她颈上的钱币金牌
我还清楚地记得那是个女王的图案...
还有...阿嬷总是充当好人
在我小时候被妈咪打时,她总是第一个向前抱着我,然后骂回我妈咪
我跟爸爸闹变扭不去补习,她也会叫我爸爸别勉强我
看我哭了,还带我去买糖 :)
三年级时发烧了2个星期,阿嬷都会每天照顾着我,半夜起来看我烧退了没...?
form 2时我出水痘,阿嬷还特地叫公公载她来我家看我,煮东西给我吃T.T
甚至一天打好几通电话给我...
到最近我的眼睛伤了
她还是老样子,打电话问我的眼睛好了没
尽管我说了很多次,她在见面时还是会问我
昨天我踢伤了脚...流了些血,对我来说还好,没事..
可她还是很担心我...一直叫我搽油
那时的她...说话的声音已经变了...变得不像以前那声如洪钟的她... :(

今早跟外婆,妈咪和小姨带阿嬷去医院检查
得知病情的严重后
大家的脸上都皱着眉头
阿嬷~对不起我不能为你做些什么
我竟可能在你面前展示那张你最喜欢的笑脸给你看
你要坚强
早上看到你在跟外婆对话时哭了起来
我的泪在眼眶里打滚
看在眼里,痛在心里...
我知道那时的我不能哭...我故作坚强,不停地和外婆在安慰

别再管他们了!!!
大家都长大了!!可以照顾自己的啊!
你也不想想...是谁把你害成这样??
是谁让你劳累了??? :(
自己的身体最重要
我不要你倒下去...不可以!!!! ><~~

stitchie~

Thanks Thanks THANKS!!!!♥♥
My Beloved cousin~♥ ^^

Today,after i reach school,and my pair of eyes still bluring....
She present me this stitch pen♥
Nice+Cute Pen!♥
I Very VERY L0Ve IT!! :D

hmm...Just IGNORE My Hand! Thankyou. ><

Sei Ah Giap~Keep Knock my Stitch pen when i am doing my homework :(

♥

不属于自己的東西不要,就是再喜歡也不行,要懂得放棄.
Cool~
很欣赏这句话♥

我想说的是...
我不喜欢的东西
可不可以不要再让我知道?
很失望...

总而言之,
没人会明白我的感受啦! ><
我需要的是关怀
就像现在 :)
开心+自由自在~~
我要怎样就怎样!!! :DD
开心就好 ^^

hrmm..
feel happy for these few days
it's my secret :)
such a new life,new things to me :)
sorry uh
friend,about i sent you the message on fb,did you saw it?
or need me to inform you here? if you havent saw it...please check your inbox har~
hope monday can discuss about my problem with you at library(duty time.shhh...) ><




(i keep on edit this post.because of too many things want to share here♥ xP)

Final-

final exam is coming
start to burn my midnight oil
haiz..

my face very 'chan' right? ><

Yeeaah~~~
After EXAM.
I will be The QUEEN of my House!!!
Hahaha
mummy wont force me go study anymore!
Play Play Play~♥ ^^


-17 days left..-